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Fear strikes
Even the mighty
Fallen prey to evil
Casted aside
Shadows lurk
Seeking refuge
Within me
Lies of the truth
Good and evil
Cast shadows
Of light onto darkness
Illuminating its path
No better than
Only same as
Find our unity
There comes a time when I reach a point
When there are no more tears to cry
And all of my emotions have run dry
The raging fury that once burned so brightly
Dying down to its embers, has spent all its fuel
With the space now for the heat to cool
Once I push past the anger, breaking through
To the other side, I now see plain and clear
The anger was masking my biggest, darkest fear
For when you help up the mirror, I saw my reflection
Like a loudspeaker, my fears being projected back
The shame too great, I couldn’t face up to all that I lack
The love for myself faltered and swayed
As it tripped over my weakened power
The triggers I no longer want to endure
I strip my emotions until they are naked
Standing under the moonlight
I realize that there is no more reason to fight
Baring my heart and soul’s truth
I can no longer run, I can no longer hide
I have said all that I need to confide
Wrapping myself in sweet surrender
A smile emerges, arms extend and eyes close
One long breath in, my body now unfroze
Sacrifice my fears, my insecurities
Hang them on the cross
For their sins, I have felt so much loss
Because there is nothing more to reveal
I don’t need to be protected any longer
Taking back my power, making me stronger
I may not be the best at this love thing
But I am not afraid to shed it all
And in my truth, I will stand tall
With Love,
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No matter how wild is my wildest dream
You feel my passion, see my spark
And look up at the star-kissed sky
Offering light to help me through the dark
No matter how loud is my loudest shout
You give me the space to speak my truth
And listen for what it’s rooted in
Coaxing out the words from my mouth
No matter how overly my overly giving
You are touched by its generosity
And feel so deeply grateful
Wondering if there was anyone luckier to be
No matter how many is my many tears
You undress and stand by my side
And share in my naked vulnerability
Willing to join me for this roller coaster ride
Steered sometimes by necessity
Other times by want and desire
Always through a choice we make
Coming deep from within our fire
All of the days and nights we share
I never once doubt your intentions
You always made my feel like your choice
That of everyone else, there is none
I know your love for me is real
I know your love for me is true
That what you say is from the heart
And it’s not your logic from which you drew
With Love,
Protection speaks many languages
And it comes in many guises
From everywhere and everyone
Creating a cloudy mist
Its form is seen as a helping hand
Some telling advice or feedback
Sharing some of the responsibility
All the while believing in my lack
When you lie to me
To spare me of my own feelings
You deny me my strength
And hide behind your own being
You want to be seen as kind and sparing
But I see beyond your face
You cowardice! You liar!
Aren’t you tired of this bittersweet taste?
Understand that the truth
Is my gate of opportunity
Your lies are what is painful
I want to be set free
When you do or say for me
What I can do or say on my own
You are taking from my power
And reducing my tone
You want to be seen as helpful and friendly
But I see beyond your face
What control! What possessiveness!
Aren’t you tired of this bittersweet taste?
Know that I am not helpless
And give me the chance
I will show what I know and learn what I don’t
For this opportunity, I hope you will grant
When you speak from your assumptions
And beware and caution and advise
You believe I don’t already know

And don’t give me the chance for my knowing to rise
You want to be seen as knowledgeable and wise
But I see beyond your face
You’re intruding! You’re trespassing!
Aren’t you tired of this bittersweet taste?
Be aware that questions over tellings
Are what help to light my way
So if you really want to help
Let me feel the sun’s rays
For within each of us, we are so much more
Powerful and wise, strong and capable
If you want to be my friend, help me grow and spread my wings
Tune my up instead of out, increase my decibel
With Love,
Cupped within thy holy chalice
Holds life’s great mysteries
Those who dare to pry fingers open
Will be faced with eternal history
Beware of the curiosity
That beckons, allures and tempts
If it is the chase you want
The prize will make you regret you went
For once revealed in its Divine light
The truth resounds at a deafening note
And the heat may be too hot to handle
That you will forget all that has been wrote
The scribes took great pains
To preserve our past
Turn each page slowly
Unless you want the die to be cast
Sip slowly from thy holy chalice
Knowing that it’s to be shared
Go forth in service and humility
Let your soul be free and bare.  
With Love,
(v) prove or show to be true or genuine; validate.
Just a few moments ago, my sheltie, who I like to call ‘Katie-dog,’ was sitting in the nook of my bent legs.  As I scratched her neck and behind her ears, she looked up at me with these adorable forever-puppy eyes.  I was about to move her so that I could get up, but then I realized that this moment we were sharing  would never be again.  So I remained still, feeling the softness of her fur, absorbing the weight and form of her body on my legs and honing in on the love and gratitude I felt for her in that very moment. 
We don’t realize it, but these moments happen over and over again in our lives.  We just don’t take the time to experience them – the support of a chair beneath us, the balance of an upright posture, the love of an arm’s embrace.  And it feels so incredibly good to be still in that moment despite whatever we are feeling – security, sadness, discomfort, warmth.  What I find most fascinating is that by standing still in that moment, without grasping, without controlling, without straining – whatever feels most uncomfortable starts to feel tolerable and whatever feels most secure starts to become more elusive.  An objective detachment takes over, as though we are on the outside experiencing from within.  A paradox that only we can know. 
We use so many high-tech codes to authenticate our identities, yet, if we really want to access our most sacred, our most private place deep within ourselves, all we truly need is this moment to serve as our authentication.  Our experiences encode our truth, and it is only in the knowing of our experiences that we can start to decode our authenticity. 
With Love,
(v) require (something) because it is essential or very important.
(n) a thing that is wanted or required.
I have allowed the winds of change to drift me to and fro without any clear direction or defined boundaries. Most people would have gotten motion sick, demanded that life stop right then and there, and climbed into the driver’s seat to take back control of their lives. Instead, I believed that the roller coaster ride was just part of the adventure, to be expected and accepted. No wonder I kept finding myself in similar situations over and over again. I lived in a state of perpetual inertia, always on the brink of movement but never being able to break forward. I kinda knew what I wanted and had no clue what I needed. While most people operate in black and white, I see nothing but 50 shades of grey. Life blurred. Intentions blurred. Understanding blurred. It was as though my North Star was hiding behind a huge cloud.
Luckily, even when life felt a little or a lot out of control, I remained secure in the facts that I always had safety nets and believed wholeheartedly that life was spiraling upwards. Scenes, voices, situations looked familiar, but they were not exactly the same. I also knew that this was the story of my life and that my lessons would be hard.  If I wanted life to be softer, I had to change my story.  
Throughout this incredibly demanding and rewarding journey, I am so much more receptive to my lessons and am trying to learn them as effectively as I can. The inner consultant begs me to be efficient, even when it comes to life lessons.  When I quit my job last June, I knew that I would face one of my biggest, looming, way beyond overdue tasks – define my needs, wants and desires. In order to break the inertia and move forward in the direction of my North Star, the Universe was demanding that I align my heart, mind and soul. Come August, I turned inward in a different way. I wasn’t focused on uncovering my hidden wounds, I was instead interested in listening to my heart.
Day by day, week by week, month by month, I investigated every detail about my life and still am investigating them. I examine what provides sustenance, nurturance, nourishment. What feels good vs ok vs bad? What are my power attachments? Where do I draw my energy from? What are my explicit life goals in the immediate, short, mid and long-term?  As a result, I have created my own Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. In the meantime, I am learning to trust my gut responses as an indication of how I really feel. Granted, my head starts to want to do its job and analyze, but it has been more important for me to rely on my intuition than anything else. Within me, through my intuition, I trust that I will be guided to where I need to be, who I need to be with and what I need to do to take my next step toward my North Star.
Up until recently, I believed that needs were static and could never include such things as wants and desires.  I associated needs with survival, which I pictured using a stone-age framework – a cave dwelling, foraged food. No fluff.  No frill.  No fancy.  My biggest breakthrough came when I disconnected this association and revised my framework.  Needs still meant securing the basics, like food, shelter, health, etc., but how I qualified them were up to me.  All of the sudden, I realized a big power shift so that I now held control over how I defined my life.  Therefore, I have started defining and qualifying my needs in a way that suits me that makes me feel safe, secure and yummy.  
In a lot of ways, I feel as though I am building a house that will eventually become my home.  Right now, I am building the foundation by fulfilling my base needs.  Once they are realized, I will revise them and start working on the infrastructure.  Eventually, I will have arrived home to my North Star.
With Love,